{"id":5954,"date":"2024-09-11T16:50:33","date_gmt":"2024-09-11T20:50:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/campus.cru.org\/faculty\/?p=5954"},"modified":"2024-09-11T16:54:40","modified_gmt":"2024-09-11T20:54:40","slug":"why-do-i-hesitate","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/campus.cru.org\/faculty\/2024\/why-do-i-hesitate\/","title":{"rendered":"Why Do I Hesitate?"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t
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Joe and I are retired industry executives and had been colleagues for years at the same company. Our wives also have the same career field \u2013 nursing. Together the four of us enjoyed dinners together, traded recipes, traveled, and wandered the stalls at farmers markets.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t

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Because of our shared history, it surprised no one that both Joe and I\u00a0ended up as adjunct business faculty, splitting a small office at the University of Tennessee.<\/p>

Modern Medicine Could Not Cure It<\/strong><\/p>

In the summer of 2020, Joe called me one day to say he had been diagnosed with a rare form of cancer.\u00a0He told me that modern medicine could manage it and perhaps slow down the progress, but not cure it. I was angry at the enemy for doing this to Joe. \u00a0<\/p>

On the phone that day, I momentarily hesitated\u2013 fearful that I might offend him if I prayed. Should I offer to pray even though I knew he had never given his life to Christ? I felt God prompting me, and Joe gladly accepted my offer to lift his circumstances heavenward.<\/p>

Unwise Decisions<\/strong><\/p>

One of my undergraduate students, Nancy, showed up unexpectedly in my office early one spring morning during office hours.\u00a0She tearfully related to me a series of unwise decisions, personal trials, and poor study habits that might jeopardize her graduation\u00a0later that semester.\u00a0Should I pray? I barely knew her.\u00a0Not sure how she would react, I offered to pray, and through her tears, she listened as I asked God to guide and encourage her.<\/p>

Ted, another faculty colleague, suddenly left a meeting without explanation, only saying he was immediately leaving town and driving home to North Carolina. Ted later told me that his wife had been diagnosed with aglioblastoma, a fast-growing brain tumor, after she had sought treatment for bouts of severe headaches.\u00a0Should I offer to pray?\u00a0Ted had never given his life to Christ, but gratefully accepted my multiple prayers for his wife\u2019s healing.<\/p>

I Should Know By Now<\/strong><\/p>

I\u2019m almost Medicare age \u2013 so I should know by now that wherever I find myself on campus or in life, that people need the saving knowledge of Jesus and the ministering touch of His followers.\u00a0<\/p>

I should remember that God is always at work preparing the soil for any seeds I sow \u2013 no matter how poor my sowing skills are.<\/p><\/blockquote>

After many decades of offering to pray for an unbeliever\u2019s circumstances, not a single one has ever said \u201cNo.\u201d Why do I hesitate?<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t

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Jon Holztrager<\/strong><\/h3>

Supply Chain – College of Business<\/h3>

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